Am I such a shitty friend? What do I do wrong? Is it because I am such a pushover and just want everyone to like me?
Today I went to lunch with a friend. At least someone who I consider a friend. I'm not sure if she considers me a friend anymore. She didn't comment on an important statement - really twice if you think about it.
I said, "You know, I can always use a girlfriend."
She shrugged her shoulders.
I said, "I hope you know that I do love you."
She said, "I know."
Nothing reciporicated. Nothing.
I feel like crap.
What did I do wrong? She says that it is me. She says that I'm always the one that is "pissed" at her. That's not true. I'm just trying too hard. Why do I care about it? Why do I let it put me in a bad mood? I don't want to lose a friend.
Should I write to her? Should I ask her what she meant?
I dunno. All I do know is that the conversation keeps playing over and over in my head and I'm not sure what to do.